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Holding the Man I think I ve been crying for an hour straight There s no way I can give any kind of insight right now because I m a mess I ll try and have some coherent thoughts up soon. This review has been hidden because it contains spoilers To view it, click here I had never heard of this book or of Tim Conigrave before having a random browse of the Popular Penguins in my local book store On reading the blurb, I thought it would be interesting and purchased it.That random moment turned out to be the best literary decision I ve ever made Simply put, this was the most devastatingly beautiful piece of writing I ve ever had the pleasure of reading Many times I caught myself thinking Man, I wish had known these guys This isn t a book about being gay, or I had never heard of this book or of Tim Conigrave before having a random browse of the Popular Penguins in my local book store On reading the blurb, I thought it would be interesting and purchased it.That random moment turned out to be the best literary decision I ve ever made Simply put, this was the most devastatingly beautiful piece of writing I ve ever had the pleasure of reading Many times I caught myself thinking Man, I wish had known these guys This isn t a book about being gay, or having HIV AIDS, although they are prominent and ultimately the main themes This is about an everyday human relationship, with all of the highs and lows we all experience I do wonder though considering the fact that Conigrave finished this after John passed away if he didn t paint John inof a forgiving light, at the same time as portraying himself as selfish and sometimes cruel I found Tim to be quite unlikeable at times, whereas John seemed to be forgiving and gentle Maybe Conigrave s grief tinged the character of John, and his guilt made him harder on himself.The literary gift of this young man was astounding The world has lost an insightful, no holds barred, bare bones author in Timothy Conigrave From the land of Down Under comes this true story about a male high school drama student who falls in love with the captain of the football team Winner of the United Nations Human Rights Award for Nonfiction, HOLDING THE MAN has been adapted into a play opening in America in SeptemberThe playwright who adapted the book for stage refers to this a a memoir of striking and unapologetic honesty Is it possible to grieve for someone you never met, someone whose existence you were not even aware of and whose death many years ago passed you by Since I finished Holding The Man by Timothy Conigrave yesterday, thoughts of Tim and John have filled my head, thoughts of their love for each other and thoughts of their short lives The wart and all description of their relationship has brought me closer to starting to understand the devastating consequences of living with AIDS, the physical and p Is it possible to grieve for someone you never met, someone whose existence you were not even aware of and whose death many years ago passed you by Since I finished Holding The Man by Timothy Conigrave yesterday, thoughts of Tim and John have filled my head, thoughts of their love for each other and thoughts of their short lives The wart and all description of their relationship has brought me closer to starting to understand the devastating consequences of living with AIDS, the physical and psychological suffering inflicted on all these men, women and children whose HIV positive status meant death Beautiful, beautiful story of two very courageous men This is a true story.The author died 10 days after completion of this book, two years after his lover There s a new star in the sky tonight And that star is my lover John He died after a fight for life, A fight he could not have won In these early days of mourning, When the glare of the sun is too bright, And the sound of children pains me, I love by the cool of the night.Tim Conigrave 19 November 1959 18 October 1994 was an Australian actor, writer, and activist John Caleo 30 May 1960 This is a true story.The author died 10 days after completion of this book, two years after his lover There s a new star in the sky tonight And that star is my lover John He died after a fight for life, A fight he could not have won In these early days of mourning, When the glare of the sun is too bright, And the sound of children pains me, I love by the cool of the night.Tim Conigrave 19 November 1959 18 October 1994 was an Australian actor, writer, and activist John Caleo 30 May 1960 26 January 1992 was born in Melbourne to an Italian family He attended Xavier College and went on to university qualify as a chiropractor John s life and relationship are celebrated in his partner s Timothy Fairfax Conigrave autobiographical memoir, Holding the Man He is portrayed not only as a handsome man but also a touchingly beautiful soul and spirit This memoir has since been made into a play 2007 , movie 2015 and documentary 2016.John s illness and death were caught up in the early days of the AIDS epidemic He was nursed in his final days by his partner and a nurse friend.Conigrave and Caleo were diagnosed with HIV in 1985 They remained relatively healthy until 1990 In 1991, Caleo was diagnosed with cancer Conigrave nursed Caleo, despite fighting his own illness John Caleo died on Australia Day, 26 January 1992, aged 31 Tim Conigrave died on 18 October 1994, aged 34 These facts alone make for a very moving story.Unlike other books that shed light on this topic, this story is up to 50% about growing up and coming out So the story is easy to read up to this point Only then do we learn the life choices that ultimately led to doom.To get to the point Life was for both of themor less normal and quite happy Until one of the two felt that life and sex was too bland and tasteless and he wanted it evencolorful and diversified.Everyone makes decisions that they later regret Few of these decisions are actually life threatening, as in this case.Tim was an artist Maybe it was his free spirit who was to blame You can think about it a lot and there is enough material to discuss this story with others.Recommended read And you should not be fooled by the first half of the book It s startling, moving and you have a lot to think about I guess the hardest thing is having so much love for you and it somehow not being returned I develop crushes all the time but that is just misdirected need for you You are a hole in my life, a black hole Anything I place there cannot be returned I miss you terribly Ci vedremo lass , angelo. I am glad I read this book it is political and ought to be read It starts of somewhat piecemeal and every time you start to get into what you think is the story it is a disjointed fragment leading nowhere, simply I guess building up the picture that Tim really is gay, and also that all around him are temptations, that a lot of males who are not gay like to experiment with gay sex Slowly, over the chapters some of the fragments start to run together or reference each other and it turns int I am glad I read this book it is political and ought to be read It starts of somewhat piecemeal and every time you start to get into what you think is the story it is a disjointed fragment leading nowhere, simply I guess building up the picture that Tim really is gay, and also that all around him are temptations, that a lot of males who are not gay like to experiment with gay sex Slowly, over the chapters some of the fragments start to run together or reference each other and it turns into what in some ways is Timothy s love story centred on histhan a decade lover John John seems sweet and good and beautiful through Tim s eyes though maybe at times a touch boring and often frustratingly a doormat for the hedonistic and almost at times narcissistic Tim.I was torn here between great admiration for the author s honesty in how he portrayed himself and a distaste for reading all the ways that Tim sabotaged his marriage well it was as good as a marriage and the long suffering John always took him back no matter what, John was a model for perfect and unconditional love which would be the sweetness in the middle of the story except and I hope this is not a spoiler the HIV thing The needless details in the book what song was playing, what they had for dinner, how sensual the lips of the female doctor looked mean that either the author had a truly remarkable memory for mundane things OR he journalled way too much even compared to me OR he made up all the details which is well done but a little pointless They add little apart fromto read The book is not long the love story itself is whirlwind especially if you consider all the breaks and time apart and affairs and stuff I would have liked any point in the book where I felt there was sweet happiness between Tim and John either before OR even after the crisis But they seemed to go from conflict to seperation with just awkward bits of sex scenes between.I don t have a problem with m m sex, and I dont even really have a problem with the unrelatable to me way it is portrayed in the book, a matter of fucking rather than sensuous connecting it seemed but it seems like a stereotype I couldn t like the hedonism of Tim I couldn t keep straight didn t meant the pun all the myriad characters in the book Suddenly someone called Lois comes in who is clearly very significant to the plot for example and I have no idea who she is It s like that awkward moment in a friendship when you are transitioning to close friends who know stuff about each other but you havent yet really worked out the who s who of the people your friend talks about.But of course the difference between an author and a friend well one of many differences is that you can t just ask them who that is or what they meant.So by all means read it, I am glad I did and it was worthwhile Despite myself I enjoyed bits of it I wish John and Tim s story had had less suffering and I was angry at the prejudiced characters To me however it was neither a great novel, nor a sweet or empowering one It was not really even a tragedy in the proper sense from John s point of view I suspect it would have been It was a true story and I think fairly honestly depicted The best description I ve heard of this book is how Peter Blazey described it when it was released it s so popular because it s gay Mills Boon.It s a memoir that reads like fiction, telling the love story of Tim Conigrave and John Caleo who meet in high school and remain lovers for life It s also a story of love in the time of AIDS a time not past, even though people are living longer with the new treatments available.Apart from the powerful story, what makes this book work is the playwrig The best description I ve heard of this book is how Peter Blazey described it when it was released it s so popular because it s gay Mills Boon.It s a memoir that reads like fiction, telling the love story of Tim Conigrave and John Caleo who meet in high school and remain lovers for life It s also a story of love in the time of AIDS a time not past, even though people are living longer with the new treatments available.Apart from the powerful story, what makes this book work is the playwright Tim s ability to write authentic dialogue that propels you from one scene to the next The prose is so simple, almost sparse, yet it packs an emotional wallop that you ll need whole boxes of tissues to clean up.It s a book that s perhapsrelevant now than when it was first published it gives a warts and all view of a long term gay relationship and unintentionally makes a compelling case for same sex marriage i had a lot of problems with this book 1 horrible writingconigrave is constantly breaking the show, don t tell rule to take an immodest example, i don t think i could count on one hand the number of times a character says something to the effect of you tim conigrave and john are the nicest people i know UGH.conigrave also has this really distracting writing tic where in spite of the first person narrative, he will throw an italicised thought in with no apparent logic behind why it was i had a lot of problems with this book 1 horrible writingconigrave is constantly breaking the show, don t tell rule to take an immodest example, i don t think i could count on one hand the number of times a character says something to the effect of you tim conigrave and john are the nicest people i know UGH.conigrave also has this really distracting writing tic where in spite of the first person narrative, he will throw an italicised thought in with no apparent logic behind why it wasn t just expressed in the general narrative e.g The book had the school emblem embossed on its cover I was nursing it on the way home when out of the blue Dad said that John s mother was very striking Perhaps my attraction to John is inherited from my father huh this sudden shift from a past tense narrative to a present tense thought really upsets the whole tone of the paragraph and it happens ALL THE TIME to boot, the thoughts are generally as mundane weird as this one what are you talking about, tim 2 unengaging storyif anyone wondered whether the life story of a gay man who falls in love, cheats on his partner and contracts AIDS SPOILER ALERT was automatically interesting, here s your answer it s not if you thought that growing up gay in a 70s catholic high school would be a homophobic nightmare, apparently you re wrong here, too conigrave s youth was apparently one horny his word, used repeatedly gay encounter after another there s barely any conflict when he comes out to his friends and family which is great for him if only it could be like that for everyone but it don t make for much of a story i feel like i encounteredhomophobia at my catholic high school in the late 90s and i m straight 3 petty, mundane protagonistas some other reviewers have pointed out, conigrave is kind of a petty jerk it s not just that he repeatedly cheats on the guy he professes to love, but that he seems to justify it to himself with minimal self reflection even this would be fine if he brought something to the table, writing or insight wise bukowski, a total jerk and philanderer, is one of my favourite writers but conigrave, rather than offsetting his own flaws with writing or insight that says something about the human condition, instead gives us drudgery like detailed accounts of his holidays in italy and bali these passages read like the laziest of emails from backpacking friends THAT SAID, this isn t a one star book it provides an account of the horror of AIDS from someone who lived and died at exactly the worst time in the history of sexual disease and the ending is genuinely sad maybe the ordinariness of this book has its own value while in the hands of a better writer or even just a better story this may have been a great book, perhaps it is important that sometimes these topics are written about by ordinary people like conigrave he might not be much of a writer or a thinker, but he lived 4 StarsThis was a touching true story about love, loss, betrayal and forgiveness.Autobiographical in nature, Tim Conigrave chronicles the highs and lows of his life experiences over a 20 year period Born and raised in Melbourne, Tim realised at a very early age that he identified as gay Growing up in a conservative Catholic family in the 70s, and attending an exclusive all boys school as a closest gay kid, was no easy feat The main focus of this story is the relationship Tim shared with John 4 StarsThis was a touching true story about love, loss, betrayal and forgiveness.Autobiographical in nature, Tim Conigrave chronicles the highs and lows of his life experiences over a 20 year period Born and raised in Melbourne, Tim realised at a very early age that he identified as gay Growing up in a conservative Catholic family in the 70s, and attending an exclusive all boys school as a closest gay kid, was no easy feat The main focus of this story is the relationship Tim shared with John Caleo John and Tim met in high school and eventually fell in love Their relationship spanned over 15 years view spoiler ending tragically when John died of an AIDS related illness in the early 90s hide spoiler They faced discrimination and prejudice from their families and members of the community, but through it all their love for one another preserved This isn t to say they didn t suffer through some seriously trying times as a couple, because they most certainly did Their relationship definitely had its ups and downs view spoiler They spent years separated, while Tim moved to Sydney to attend an acting school, and Tim continuously engaged in sexual affairs with other men over the years when he and John were and weren t together I became extremely upset by Tim s constant cheating, but he was always honest and open about his indiscretions with John, and even though his behaviour hurt John immensely, John continually let it slide and accepted Tim and all his faults with an open heart full of forgiveness Basically, John was a fricken Saint hide spoiler view spoiler In the mid 80s John and Tim were diagnosed as HIV positive The whole latter half of the story follows their lives post diagnosis and it becomes an extremely tough read from this point on IMO I found myself extremely emotional, having difficulty reading some of the scenes in which Tim depicted, in vivid detail, the various health crisis s which he and John experienced over a 6 year period The culmination of which ended with John s heartbreaking death hide spoiler.By the end of this story I was emotionally drained Knowing it s a true story, written by a man who was so brutally honest and open in his sharing of his life, made this quite an engrossing and poignant reading experience To be honest, I didn t like Tim all that much, which is a hard thing for me to admit, because it feels wrong to have such negative opinions of a man who, ultimately, did such good things with his life He shared his life so honestly, not shying away from the good or the bad, for the entire world to see, and that in itself takes a certain type of courage and determination to achieve He came across as unappealingly self centred most of the time, although, I got the strong sense that he had little awareness of this behaviour Many times throughout the story he d say things likeI guess I did the wrong thingorHe seems mad at me, maybe I shouldn t have done that , to which I just shook my head and sent lots of ranty text messages encompassing my rage and anguishes to my reading buddy, Kerenza see her much better review here But, like I said, it s such a brave thing to share yourself so openly for all to judge and critic, so I give my full respect to Tim for that view spoiler I also find it utterly devastating that Tim passed away mere months before this story was officially published hide spoiler Now, I just have to emotionally survive a viewing of the film adaptation this weekend and I can finally put Tim and John s heartbreaking story to rest An interesting, affecting, and poignant read I have to admit, though, I came away with a sense that Tim is a bit of an unreliable narrator Although he is quick to point out his own faults, and he does some truly selfish, awful things, I also wonder if in his grief he painted a wholly romantic and idealised portrait of his partner John.I knew little about this book before I started reading it, so the second half came as a bit of a shock Being part of the generation that was young and scared sh An interesting, affecting, and poignant read I have to admit, though, I came away with a sense that Tim is a bit of an unreliable narrator Although he is quick to point out his own faults, and he does some truly selfish, awful things, I also wonder if in his grief he painted a wholly romantic and idealised portrait of his partner John.I knew little about this book before I started reading it, so the second half came as a bit of a shock Being part of the generation that was young and scared shitless by the Grim Reaper bowling ads that were a mainstay of our childhoods, it is important to note that the generation following us, especially in light of new statistics, have seemingly become immune no pun intended to the horrors of AIDS as the number of infections is on the increase again.That s why this book remains important Both as a chronicle of its time, and because it STILL has relevance All in all, it is a book about love, about being human, and I dare anyone not to be touched by it


About the Author: Timothy Conigrave

Tim Conigrave 19 November 1959 18 October 1994 was an Australian actor, writer, and activist.Conigrave was born in Melbourne, and after attending the Jesuit Xavier College and Monash University, where he appeared in Bertolt Brecht s A Man s a Man and Ariane Mnouchkine s 1789 Following graduation he worked with the St Martin s Youth Arts Centre Under the direction of Helmut Bakaitis, Alison Richards and Val Levkowicz, he performed in the touring productions of The Zig Zag Follies, Cain s Hand and Quick Eze Cafe In July 1981 he performed in the Australian Performing Group APG production of Bold Tales at The Pram Factory, under the direction of Peter King Also in 1981 he worked on Edward Bond s Saved for the Guild Theatre Company and completed his first play, The Blitz Kids, which was performed at the La Mama Theatre Adelaide in August 1981.Conigrave later moved to Sydney to study at the National Institute of Dramatic Art NIDA , from which he graduated in 1984 Two years later he was instrumental in initiating the acclaimed Soft Targets 1986 project at Sydney s Griffin Theatre Company, where for a period he served on the board of directors.He appeared in such plays as Brighton Beach Memoirs, As Is, and On Top of the World He was also a playwright, producing works including Thieving Boy, Like Stars in your Hands and The Blitz Kids.He was a member of The Globos, a musical comedy cabaret group, performing at Sydney s Kinselas nightclub in the mid 1980s.His major work, the autobiographical Holding the Man 1995 , is the story of his 15 year love affair with John Caleo They met at Xavier when Caleo was captain of the football team and Conigrave wanted to be an actor Conigrave finished the book shortly before dying of an AIDS related illness The book was published by Penguin Books in Australia in February 1995, and also in Spain and North America It won the 1995 United Nations Award for Non Fiction.Holding the Man has been adapted into a multi award winning play by Tommy Murphy The premiere production was directed by David Berthold at Griffin Theatre Company It later played a return season at Griffin, February March 2007, where it also sold out, before transferring to the Sydney Opera House for a third sell out season, 9 26 May 2007 Company B at the Belvoir St Theatre hosted a fourth season 22 September 4 November 2007 A fifth season played at the Brisbane Powerhouse in early March 2008, with a sixth following as part of Melbourne Theatre Company s 2008 season, 19 March 26 April 2008 In 2010 it played in London s Trafalgar Studios There have also been productions in San Francisco, Auckland, New Zealand, and most recently was a 2014 production in Los Angeles directed by Larry Moss and featuring Nate Jones, Adam J Yeend, Cameron Daddo and Roxane Wilson.Later life and deathConigrave and Caleo were diagnosed with HIV in 1985 They remained relatively healthy until 1990 In 1991, Caleo was diagnosed with cancer Conigrave nursed Caleo, despite fighting his own illness Caleo died on Australia Day 26 January 1992 Conigrave died on 18 October 1994.


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